It's Our 23rd Today

Amazing...
that we've come this far.

Surprising...
that we were able to make it somehow.

Fearing...
what tomorrow could lead us.

Pondering...
on all that was.

Unsure...
of what lies ahead.

Hoping...
that everything would be done not just said.

Praying...
that things would only get better.

Trusting...
knowing that we have each other.

Sticking...
to this, to us, not willing to let go.

Loving...
the man who kissed me 23 months ago.

The Term That Was

Finally, after another grueling term, it is term break once again. The finals week was the deadliest. We had to submit 85 papers compiled "creatively", a psychological evaluation of our patient, a take-home final exam which was given as such since if we were to answer it in class, it would take the entire term [as in], and a personal case history project.

Don't think that only the numbers make these tasks impossible. I tell you, it's not just it. To come up with 85 papers, you must have read 85 chapters of Yalom's book, think of designs to make it artsy fartsy, and have it ringbound. I am so resourceful that I merely placed them in a clearbook. Hehe. For the psychological evaluation, of course, I had to adminsiter and interpret psychological tests. The standardized tests were relatively easier but tell me, do you think it is easy to determine my client's stress level by simply looking at his drawings and reading the stories he made up? Hell No. Would it be easy to answer a 6-question final exam worth 230 points? Obviously not. Lastly, how easy is it to attach a mental disorder to yourself, make a social history that leads to it, have a discussion, conceptualization, and treatment? Not so much.

Imagine my joy and glee when I got our course cards along with the PPG. I didn't have any grade lower than 3.5! Yehey!! A 4.0 and a bunch of 3.5s!! [VERY] Hardwork really pays off..and it pays off very well.:) So off to Tagaytay we went right after the nerve-wracking course card distribution and spent lots of fun, dvd marathons, chills [from the cool air and the scary movies], beers [for them though], chips, and great food. Oh, the PPG. We are always together through the worst and best times.:) By the way, this term is so memorable for us for the reason that PJ's question, "gano katibay ang pundasyon ng PPG?" was answered. Uber strong. Unbreakable.

I was back at home late afternoon of Sunday. What better way to cap the weekend with a nice sumptuous dinner with the person who helped me with everything from answering tests, lending me his flash drive when I couldn't fine mine, typing the 85 papers and burning them on a CD, providing me a nokia charger [even that], fixing my deactivated mylasalle account, doing my on-line enrollment for me, going with me for my search for which UMPC to purchase, taking me out to "chill" and bearing with my bad moods from all the tiredness, ETC. Did i mention that he bought me this delectable and pretty cake that night only to satisfy my craving the night before? SWEET.:)

Speaking of cakes, this little princess will be a little less younger in a couple of days..5, as of this writing..:) Gifts are welcome.:)

Thanks in advance, mwaah!

12

It's the twelfth again! Another month has been added.

Nobody said it would be easy...

But it was more than worth it. :)

Grey Area

When girls are in love, we tend to associate every song, every line, and every movie with how we feel or how we are. I was able to finish the entire DVD of the last season of Grey's Anatomy and I so loved it. The romantic shmuck that I am, of course, I have to be one of those ladies who feel that they are in the shoes of one character or the other. For me, I was like Meredith. Well, excluding the mistress fact and her one-night stands. Derek, would be Rey, also excluding the Addison fact. Let me share with you some lines that really made me smile and say, "Annix, is that you?"--


MEREDITH: "If you want to break up with me...just do it. Just end it, if that's what you want."

DEREK: "I can't."

MEREDITH: "Sure you can, here's how it goes. Meredith, I don't want to see you anymore. Meredith, I don't love you anymore."

DEREK: "Meredith, I do love you. Don't you see? Don't you understand? You're the love of my life. I can't leave you. But you're constantly leaving me. You walk away when you want, you come back when you want. Not everyone, not your friends, but you leave me.."

[see? she's so me! he's so him! my friends could attest to these lines! waah!]

Meredith: Stop. I do not need rescuing.

Derek: You would've drowned in the bathtub had I not been there.

Meredtih: I'm a surgeon. i do not need rescuing. You are not my knight-in-shining... whatever.

Derek: So we're gonna fight because i pulled you out of the tub?

Meredith: You have a place, you could sleep at it. And you didn't have to pull me out of the bathtub. You're everywhere all the time saying things.

Derek: This is the happily ever after part. And in the happily ever after part the guy is there, all the time saying things. And the girls love it!

Meredith: Go to work. I'll see you there.

Derek: Just for the record, I am your knight-in-shining whatever.

[rey and annix. clearly. annix the "mataray" and rey the understanding one. hehe. rey coming to "rescue" me and then hear me complaining about it. if you were with us yesterday, you would've witnessed.]


DENNY: "Do you know what kind of miracle it is that Derek is who he is? Do you know how rare it is that someone like him even exists? He's still an optimist! He still believes in true love and magic and soulmates. He's waiting for you. And if you don't come back from this, you will change who he is."

[now this line i've heard from my friends endless times.]

Gosh. I can't wait for the next season of Grey's.

love it is

Last night, over beer and tortillos, our Xgrothe [Group Therapy] class gathered once again at Tulyase laughing ang talking [with sense, that is]. Questions were exchanged when Sir Bob suddenly gave an interesting one: "Have you ever been loved the way you want to?"

I was the first to give an answer, "yes." Everyone answered as required. I was quick with my reply 'coz I am sure with it. I don't have to ponder neither have second thoughts.

It was only when I woke up today that I thought of the question. No more noise, alcohol, and chips. I wasn't rethinking of my answer. I was contemplating on the NO responses. I believe that each of us loves someone the best way we could. Yet, as individuals, we're different. He may love her in this manner, and she may love him in another. The same thing goes with the way all of us want to be loved--in dissimilar means.

A year ago, I would have probably answered the same question with a NO. Why? It's because a year ago, I still haven't learned what I had just said. I used to always whine about how he is not as this or that like me. Worse, I compared him with others. Now, he helped me realize that even if we are alike in more than a dozen things, we are not the same in more than a dozen things, too and that does not exclude the way we love.

Until now, I don't want his being manongly-protective at times. He doesn't want my carino brutal most of the time. But for him, it's the best way to love me. For me, that's the best way to love him. That's how he loves me. That's how I love him.

I guess we gotta keep this in mind:

Not because someone doesn't love us the way we want them to doesn't mean they don't love us with all they've got.

Fish & Our Company

"Fish are friends, not food." -Finding Nemo

I always say that line everytime I would get asked if I want to eat fish. Obviously I don't. I am a pork-beef-chicken-lamb-anything-but-fish type of person. I eat fish at times. But I am really picky. I like the big ones only for the reason that I hate having to take off the bones. With the likes of tuna or blue marlin, it is relatively easy. So Rey got surprised when I said I loved the seafood at Fish & Co. They had pork and chicken but heck, of course I had to try their fish. It was amazing. They didn't name their fish and chips as The Best Fish and Chips in Town for nothing. They were true to their name. The servings are generous. The Baked Salmon was really delectable. The Peppercorn Mahi Mahi was great. The bottomless strawberry lemonade was oh-so-yummy.

Last Saturday, Rey and I went to the Mall of Asia. After looking around, I complained of aching legs. For that reason, Rey decided to for us to get a snack and lounge at Cheesecake etc. After staying there for hours [literally], we had dinner at Fish & Co. Yey!=) It was his first time to dine there and he ordered the Porkchops Basilico and I ordered my favorite Fish and Chips. The serving of the Porkchops was not only big--it was huge! While we were eating, he kept on saying how good our food were. It made me happy knowing he loved it.=) We hang out at my house after and he was already planning on when to go back at Fish & Co.!

It was past one in the morning when he left. Saturday was simply a wonderful day. Apart from all the food we had, it was because we got to spend time together. At the end of the day, my Belgian Double Cream Cheesecake wouldn't be as delightful as it was if he had not been at my side. Our dinner wouldn't be as enjoyable if we didn't get to enjoy it together.

Sweet.:)